As I write this my exhausted wife and newborn son are sleeping. It is so good to be able to type that sentence for several reasons. One being that neither did that last night on our first night together at home and secondly because Christine and I have prayed for that little guy for a long time.
In August I wrote a post called "The Glory of Infertility" that was picked up by Relevant Magazine's website, a magazine in Singapore called Trinitarian Magazine and was interviewed about it on a New Zealand radio program called The Forum. Needless to say I was surprised by the response, but not overly surprised that of all the things I've written about that the topic of infertility struck a cord.
Infertility is something 1 in 8 couples deal with and it is heart-wrenching. So, as I sit in the room with my sleeping wife and little Joshua I am filled with joy.
God is good.
God is good, but He's not good because Christine and I now have a son. No, God is good because that is what and who He is. Father, Son and Spirit are just simply good. They are good all the time. God is the very definition of good.
The circumstance we were in while waiting for Joshua was hard and the gorgeous circumstance that I'm sitting in today is much more preferable to me, but God is no more good today nor was He any less good then.
God is good.
God's goodness does not hinge on circumstances. He is immutable and eternal. His goodness never changes and it will never end. Often we view the immutable nature of God in the light of His goodness and love never decreasing, but His immutable attribute of goodness means that His goodness and love can never increase. He is the acme of goodness at all times and always will be.
So, when people come up to us and say, "God is good" in response to seeing Joshua I will agree wholeheartedly. God is good all the time! When I hold my son I experience His goodness more tangibly, but His goodness was there when Joshua wasn't. It was planning Joshua from before the foundations of the earth, it was giving my wife and I strength to wait and trust, it was helping us see the glory in our infertility and it was holding our very fibers together.
In the post I wrote about our infertility I said this:
There must be glory in infertility.
I don't know how but I trust that when I look back on this it will be like flipping a cross stitch over from back to front. I trust that God not only knows what He's doing but that what He's doing will be glorious.
I trust that if and when Christine gets pregnant it will be with OUR child planned for us from before creation. I trust that when we adopt we will adopt OUR child planned for us from eternity before eternity.
Now, I see it, at least in part. I see the egg and the sperm that God joined together in His perfect timing. I see the financial stability that He got us to before Joshua came. And most importantly I see the sanctification of my own faith the He brought about in our waiting on Him.
God is good all the time. Your experience may be one of great joy or crippling pain and I know there are days when believing in God's goodness is easier than others so I pray you have the faith to trust that God is good, no matter what, today.